I mentioned the other day that one of the things I agonized about before returning to the blogosphere was how much to share. I'm a very visible person professionally and socially and I'm not sure where to draw the line between enough and too much. I am not so concerned about my personal visibility--I know that everybody is 'weird' if you get to know them well enough. I'm cool with my weirdness and I know that anyone who takes exception to my weirdness is just throwing stones in a glass house.
I think I'm more concerned about my professional image. How are people going to respect my judgement in situations with far-reaching consequences if they know that I once...you know! *sigh* You know? I also, for some reason, brace against showing any signs of being human in the workplace. I cannot be vulnerable there. That is my livelihood. That's what pays my rent and feeds my face. That's what keeps my son in a dorm at a university. These are my first priorities. Hello, Maslow's Need Hierarchy!
BUT--and there's always a but (and a butt...heh heh), I HATE censoring myself. One of the reasons my last blog fizzled is that I started feeling things that I was fine sharing with the world at large, but didn't want to share with people I would see all suited up Monday morning around a conference table. This issue has been the most paralytic for me.
Could people trust me professionally if they knew that I sometimes doubted myself? That I have never been in a relationship with a sane, stable man? That I've failed people I love. That I bleed when I'm cut? Well, I guess I'm fucked, because they do now! Kidding...sort of.
As I wrestled with this issue, I thought about the bloggers I know and love, and how and how much they shared.
1. The Doctor Will See You Now: Chrisa Hickey blogs about mental health issues, and concentrates specifically on child and adolescent mental health issues. She's an inadvertent expert. She is raising two mentally ill teens (and has another adult child too). She blogs naked, but not simply for the sake of blogging naked. Just as you can't get a complete physical without disrobing, a parent of a mentally ill child can't easily talk about mental health without getting personal some of the time. Her blog is both pragmatic and heart-breakingly beautiful.
2. All Gussied Up: Alana exudes creativity and design, as is evident at first glance of her very awesome blog, Kitschy Kitten. Like the subtitle says, it'a a wonderful blog full of good things--her crafty projects, her adventures in her vintage camper and updates about her beautiful family. She stays fully clothed, and very stylishly dressed...well, sometimes she lets her spaghetti straps fall down.
3. Aaaaand, ACTION!: Paige Worthy is not shy and frequently blogs naked. On occasion, she pulls off the literary equivalent of cinematic full frontal and it is stunning. But her nudity is never gratuitous, and is always tasteful and integral to the scene. I greatly admire the finesse she puts on her craft.
4. Naked As The Day She Was Born: @Lilnerdette is a naked blogging warrior woman. She's quietly confident that we're all beautiful--even when we're ugly. She doesn't hide. When I read her posts, I want to be as naked and brave as she is.
So, where do I fall on the blogging naked spectrum? I don't know. I'll have to keep feeling my way around...